I've been (again)
pre-occupied by a lot of things lately. But, I have no idea of what made me
busy these past few weeks.
Here I am again,
contemplating with everything that’s going on with my life. I want to talk with
someone who can guide me, open my eyes and make me realize the right and
wrongs. I know people who can make me realize such things but I am too lazy to
talk about it. Hence, I am writing it all down here. (I’m giving away how
bizarre my mind is.)
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I am thinking of quitting my day job. Reasons are as follows:
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It consumes most of my time
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Growth. My current company has promised me too much in the
beginning. Now, what?
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There’s this hidden job market, which I want to explore.
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I am no longer happy.
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Calligraphy. I want to study calligraphy and do invitations,
signage, and etcetera. I used to do lettering when I was a teenager, not to
brag but I am good at it! I wonder why I lost my interest. But hey, it has
found its way back to me!
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Cook and bake. I used to cook, but now that I am occupied by this
8am to 6pm work, I can no longer find time to. It makes me sad, really. I also want
to learn how to bake.
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Bike. I am currently selling my foldable bike, to have an
additional moolah, because I am planning to buy a new MTB. Not only that I want
to join the boyfriend in his biking trips, but it also makes me happy.
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I want to T R A V E L.
See, there’s too
much in my list. I want to do a lot of things but I don’t have the time. I don’t
know, maybe also the drive to do these things?
God has blessed me
with whatever I have now, I shouldn’t be complaining with things because others
don’t even have this and that, I know. I am aware of His blessings and I am
thankful for those.
But, I am also aware that there is this thin line lying
between the things that hold you from doing something and your happiness. And I
am willing to take a risk, to go over that line.
With all the pieces of my heart,
