E S C A P E

I've been (again) pre-occupied by a lot of things lately. But, I have no idea of what made me busy these past few weeks. 

Here I am again, contemplating with everything that’s going on with my life. I want to talk with someone who can guide me, open my eyes and make me realize the right and wrongs. I know people who can make me realize such things but I am too lazy to talk about it. Hence, I am writing it all down here. (I’m giving away how bizarre my mind is.)

-          I am thinking of quitting my day job. Reasons are as follows:

·         It consumes most of my time

·         Growth. My current company has promised me too much in the beginning. Now, what?

·         There’s this hidden job market, which I want to explore.

·         I am no longer happy.

-          Calligraphy. I want to study calligraphy and do invitations, signage, and etcetera. I used to do lettering when I was a teenager, not to brag but I am good at it! I wonder why I lost my interest. But hey, it has found its way back to me!

-          Cook and bake. I used to cook, but now that I am occupied by this 8am to 6pm work, I can no longer find time to. It makes me sad, really. I also want to learn how to bake.

-          Bike. I am currently selling my foldable bike, to have an additional moolah, because I am planning to buy a new MTB. Not only that I want to join the boyfriend in his biking trips, but it also makes me happy.

-          I want to T R A V E L.

See, there’s too much in my list. I want to do a lot of things but I don’t have the time. I don’t know, maybe also the drive to do these things?

God has blessed me with whatever I have now, I shouldn’t be complaining with things because others don’t even have this and that, I know. I am aware of His blessings and I am thankful for those. 

But, I am also aware that there is this thin line lying between the things that hold you from doing something and your happiness. And I am willing to take a risk, to go over that line.

With all the pieces of my heart,